Thursday, October 27, 2011

The Challenge continues.

Hi all. Celebrate Life has been in my heart. Yesterday I was so unhappy. I was having a you-should-be-busier, you-should-be-saving-the-world, you-should-not-be-feeling-depressed-day. And I thought to myself, maybe I am the one that puts this pressure on me, and nobody else. Andrew, his usual easy-going low-stress self, said, it's okay to have one of those days where you don't feel motivated. I thought, maybe he's right. So I kinda chilled and tried to not be worried. I was still feeling a little worried, stressing about the future and all the things I couldn't control and all my shortcomings, and what if I fail, like I have in the past, etc. Finally, at the end of the day, a beautiful remembrance came to my mind-I remembered the joy I felt in one of the most challenging trials of my life-losing my friend to cancer. Every day brought a new challenge, but I learned through the example of his family, to live one day at a time. And that made me happy. It made me happy then, and it makes me happy now. As long as I focus on what I can do each day to achieve my goals and be the best I can be, eventually I will get there. The true freedom, however, is that happiness does not lie in my performance-whether I completely ruin my shot at x, y, z, or whether I am just awesome at everything in life-my true happiness lies in the gratitude for what I have, what I am. True happiness lies in friendship, freedom, and forgiveness. True happiness lies in family. My family is not perfect, but I have a family who loves me. I have a wonderful, amazing man who wants to marry me. I have wonderful blessings on the near horizon and NOW. God has opened my eyes to the blessings that are right in front of me. What is in front of you? Or better yet, WHO is in front of you??

If you let Him, He will open your eyes to the wonder of His plan for you. He loves you.

To the Celebration of your phenomenal, miraculous life, for each life is that-a miracle,

Lisa Grace